Aqua Phoenix

To all you so called "friends"

2007-02-17T03:56:00.000+02:00

February the 15th, my birthday, the day I truthfully never expected anything from anyone because I've been let down once too many times by my fucked up ex, parents and family, and last but not least my "friends". This year was different though, i had a feeling that i may get something, not a gift, but that feeling of having your "friends" all around you, just talking having fun making pranks telling stories, in short it was supposed to be almost perfect. Now the reason why I'm quoting the word friends all the time, is because most of them let me down, and i wont start naming them, because I am gonna face them and they will read this blog because i am gonna give them the link and they'r gonna read it to the last word. All of you, who ditched me, and thought that if you didnt show up to my birthday or even tried a nice gesture, even if it was a smiley or a message, and thought you'll make it up to me some other day, for such silly reasons as a "happy BITCHING friendship day" or because of the "outgoing" crowd at another place or simply because you thought that it may not mean anything to me, well, it does, and it does alot, if you really thought that I wouldn't realize that you didnt show up and that you're ditching me, then you're wrong, very wrong and you have just shown yourself to be an unworthy person, not worth being called friend, or even being called human, you're some kind of scum made out of clay and posses the same organs and characteristics of humans, but you're not at all, you're defiled and stained by this lifes fucked up wierdness, and all its "woohoos" and "lets party" and "am I blonde enough?" and "Do you think if its a full moon i'd interest you in talking about it?!" SCREW YOU!! ALL OF YOU WHO EXPECT TO STOMP ALL OVER ME AND EXPECT A NICE GUY IN RETURN, YOU'RE GETTING NOTHING BUT THE NEW FUCKED UP VERSION OF ME!! If you think you've seen the worse of me, then you're very wrong! Yes February the 15th is my birthday, a day that created this new person, a person you might call a monster, but truly is the outcome of your own actions and is more human than you'll ever be!

Randomness

2007-02-09T15:38:00.000+02:00

I owe this to mt good little friend Tareq who i iv known for less than a year now but seems like a very interesting individual and musical tastes are also cool, very trip-hoppish and IDM-ish too (this is for u Hiba) so if youd like to check out his blog, its on the side bar in the name of Randomness, enjoy :)

Secret Images

2007-02-07T13:00:00.000+02:00

I just saw this from my friend
Google Earth Awesome

Darbooka Boys!

2007-02-05T01:30:00.000+02:00

Yesterday at almost 5pm, on Radio Monte Carlo, there was an interview with 2 of the most controversial and unorthodox upcoming artists, Azriel and Gabriel (Dark and light, Death and Life) the bands name is Boogie Balagan, made up of these two individuals, who lived in Palestine/Israel, or how they call it PalestIsrael, and currently live in Paris, France. These 2 have a new vision, for coexisting of religions, and yet their motivation comes from something most of us have enjoyed as children, the comic Asterix & Obelix, by the well known french illustrator Albert Uderzo and story writer René Goscinny . Azri/Gabri describe Palestine as Gaul in the spread of the Roman Empire, and how the Gauls represent civilians, and the Romans represent the opressing good for nothing governments of both Palestine and Israel.

Their Music in their words "When Psychadellic rock 'n roll meets cool middle eastren mediterranean vibes, it's the place where cultures are coming together to an unexpected rainbow..." (Azriel: ps9 - the Walloo book)
In my opinion, the rock, funny, talented and very creative, and i personally support them fully. Thank both Azri/Gabri for your kind words on the radio, and i heard the whole interview from the begining till its end, i wish them all the best of luck, and i'm lucky to have made friends of such status and caliber...
I really recommend buying their CD
Heres their website Boogie Website
And their Myspace profile Boogie Space
And to end it in their words:

Ride on, Ride on, with my guitara... Salam Salam, Abu Mustafa ;)

Jerry Garcia

2007-02-04T02:02:00.000+02:00

One of the most unique and wacky artists i've ever stumbled upon, Jerry Garcia is one of the greatest people that i've read about and heard about. His signature "middle finger-less" right hand even impressed me more, i've always had something for the hand impression on anything, (bodyglove is also a favourite), this man/artist was the lead guitarist and frontman of Grateful Dead, that was one of the most influential bands at that time and truly contributed to our current Rock/Metal music that we listen to these days. I sadly knew about the guy a couple of weeks ago, and in this time related so much to him, he's a painter, and a guitar player! Only thing i don't relate to is his heroin smoking hehe. It's a shame he passed away 12 years ago, this guy really gave alot to music and his art was also interesting and colors relate so much to me :D

Anyway here's a link to the artists page, enjoy :)

JerryGarcia

2007-01-16T19:42:00.000+02:00

It was a Sunday, and one of my previous and most favourite professors had come to University for a visit. We shook hand and had a little simple hug since i respect him as an elder and one of the leading artists in Jordan, and despite the age difference, we are very good friends. He entered the Arts Faculty building, and as soon as he entered, a girls voice from behind me came up saying "POOR THING!!!" and another voice asked "Why, whats wrong?". The girl replied "He's dying!!"
.....
I froze, i did not know what to think or perceive.. I knew that my Professor has cancer, and that the battle with it is wearing him out, and I know that sooner or later we all die.. But that girls words.. "he's dying".. it seemed so cruel, so evil, so ignorant, yet it was all so true..

I started wondering, "why is he dying? why should he die?". I always gave the Professor what he wanted, helped him out in everything, and visit his house whenever i could, i even gave him cigarettes and then made him feel bad about it cuz i was the only one who gives him cigarettes and he shouldn't be smoking, so he'd light it without inhaling, then look at me with a little grin, and break the cigarette apart, also giving me some complementary cusses in Arabic.. I got amazing memories with him, like the times when we started talking "rural" (fala7i) Arabic, too slang and old, and his Italian wife would look at us as if we were crazy and talking gibberish and storm out of the room cussing at us both in Italian! We would laugh so hard that it would hurt sometimes..

I am one of the people that believe in death as a transitional phase, not necessarily something bad, but as human nature interferes with adding emotions of "grief", "sadness" and longing for who have passed away, we cannot do anything but sit and wonder about our own destinies, fates, futures and could only speculate, while we could be 100% wrong about everything. Heaven and Hell only exist because we were told they were, and actually its the most logical explanation, i mean i wouldn't like to be stuck with Attila the Hun in the same "apartment" in the after life, he'd rip me apart! I wanna die peacefully, and leave a good trace or print in this life, i realised that it could never be the end for me, even when i die, i still got the after life to wreak and havoc in hehe..

2006-12-26T22:59:00.000+02:00

I spoke to her today, after a while of awkward and painful silence.. She seemed to be fine, seemed to be content and discretely glad to speak to me.. I really don't know where I'm going, earlier she asked me to fall out of love.. Impossible, isn't it? But she expects me to comply... I'm not saying that she's selfish and self-centered, but she's reached a point that she wants things to just disappear and is so very lost and confused. You can't really blame her, I mean, I just came out of nowhere, I got to know her well enough, couldn't keep my heart in its cold "senseless" cage, and fell in love with her.. I had to ruin it all by falling in love and admitting it to her.. I promised myself i would never do this to myself again, but guess what?! I rescrew myself over and over again... These past 4 months have been like hell, and they'r not getting any better at all..

More gloomy and depressing stories later..

Reborn from the humid ashes..

2006-12-21T02:02:00.000+02:00

I know not alot visit or even acknowledge the existence of my blog, but in the words of the great band "Queen" I am not here "for the fame, fortune and everything that goes"..
I have been in a state of.. how should i put this... "hibernation" i've been through so much, and have grown a thousand years inside, i started seeing a future, so hard to reach, yet i still carry on my journey.

I have met my only true love, and by only i do mean only, yet she falls for another who lives in Africa, who contacts her once every pink elephant migration, who claims he loves her, yet seems to not know the meaning of love. I'm usually not a judgemental type of person, but its because i know how much i love her, and know what i posses for her inside my heart mind and soul is as great as the whole universe itself, and could come second after Gods love to his creatures, thats how greatly i love her.

Whoever reads this, might say "oh this guy doesn't know crap about love and how it screws you over!" or "oh boy.. you're in for a huge surprise..".
Believe me, i do know about love, and how it could flip a perfectly sane person into a madman driven by his heartbreak.. I have been through six years of a twisted downward spiral of a relationship, gotten a taste of unfaithfullness, dishonesty, being a puppet and treated like an object, and if you're still wondering "is this a a guy or a girl?" nope.. i'm a man, a man who lost everything, yet found even more afterwards..

This is the first post of a never-ending story, i'll continue later on..

AMMANS 1ST CHARITY ROCK CONCERT!!

2006-05-01T01:09:00.000+03:00

ITS THE 1ST CHARITY ROCK CONCERT IN JORDAN!! AND AM GNA BE IN IT WITH MY BAND!! WOOOHOOOOO!!!
and please note no money is gona go to our empty, raggedy, holed up, torn pockets :D

Still alive.. And well??

2006-03-15T01:27:00.000+02:00

Hellos ppl, its been a long time since i posted anything, yes yes am still alive and as usual uni is shitty and life is shitty, which means the whole process is SOOO shitty it reminds me shit. ummmmmm........

thats it i guess, i'll be more active in the upcoming days, just gotta settle the shit in my head n life, then ill flush and get back to normal
'nuff said

JAD!

2006-02-08T02:04:00.000+02:00

Here in Jordan it amazes me how much people use many words such as "TAGE3!" or "MISH TABI3I!" but what am gona talk about has nothing to do with those words but with the word "JAD". It litterally means "seriously"and be used in any kind of sentence, for example you could say: "Ya zalameh jad mish 3aref shu bidi asawi", in english : "Man seriously i don't know what im gonna do" and it sometimes could be used twice or more (for no reason, just wasting breath, time and sounding "serious") like : "Jad jad ya3ni mish fahem hala2 jad shu 3am bti7ki jad?" and am not going to translate the rest in english, i think you're smart enough to point out the "jad"s in that sentence (if you are an airheaded girl, then would you go out with me? Im filthy rich and i've got a killer body and would go out with u and i'd marry u and make u live like a queen and i will not use you i promise, but i always forget my wallet and my cars at the garage getting fixed and my house is being rennovated.) And now to finish this useless crappy post i would like to show u the true power of the word "jad" and prove to you that it is an endless word where u can begin a sentence and never end it just by using that word and a few "fill-ins", and here it goes : "hala2 jad jad ya3ni jad jad jad bas jad jad, jad jad....... jad jad jad jad jad ino jad jad jad ini 3anjad jad jad jad jad jad, jad jad jad jad bas jad jad" i stopped cuz i could go on like this forever, and believe me i am this patient and yes i do have alot of time on my hands, and about the jad thing if you dont believe wat i said then try it with a friend! :D (sounds like a cheesy TV advert)

P.S.
I have just made you lose 5 minutes of your beautiful/worthless (you choose) life so give yourself a pat on the back/slap on your face (you also choose, see am flexible, now.... where are the airheaded girls?)

Classics will always rule...

2006-02-04T00:59:00.000+02:00

Cars have always been a main intrest for me and i always try o keep myself up to date with everything that has anything to do with them, and i saw something today that i thought was a dream but turned out to reality, the new Chevrolet Camaro, though it's a bit late in its revealing when compared with its 2 rivals, the Ford Mustang and the Dodge Charger, but it seems that the Camaro is gonna steal away the show. Its exterior is amazing and the interior is completly different and unique than any of the 2 rivals yet its so simple and attractive and u may think that the car is a complete copy of the new Mustang but believe it or not Chevy has been working on this car since 1999 and Ford heard of the rumor that a new car that was influenced by a classic is going to be released so they started working on the Mustang in 2002 and Dodge followed. Anyways am boring u guys, i know, but to car lovers this is a "must see".

MGS

2006-02-03T05:53:00.002+02:00

As you could see its 6 am in the morning and IM STILL AWAKE!! I cant sleep due to the stupid "upset stomach" condition i've been going through for 2 days from a Nescafe that was apparently made by the residual rainwater in the streets (which actually has the same colour as Nescafe) and then sold by a small "kushok" in Gardens St.. Anyways my insomniac night didn't turn out to be a total waste after all, cuz i was searching through the net for fun stuff when i came across one of my favourite games, Metal Gear Solid, and whats even better is that i got the blog of the guy who made the whole game called Hideo Kojima (Japanese name), and his blog is conveniently translated in english by a guy i dno wat his name is (didnt really matter), and its also available as an audio blog! Man Japanese ppl rule! I put his blog link on my side bar, its the japanese name..... the only one... believe me u wont miss it.... HIDEO KOJIMA OK?? ok and i think i should shut my mouth and try to sleep now....

I've been tagged.. Damn it...

2006-01-30T04:35:00.000+02:00

Five Facts about me:

1- I could smell rain and predict the weather sometimes by the sense of smell (well atleast I know y the big nose is on my face! I swear am not makin that up!)
2- I never tasted sushi in my life although each person I describe it to gets all watery in the mouth, but Id love to try it (hehe sorry ppl, u know who u are :P)
3- I could go 3 days straight without food and I wouldnt complain too (although after those 3 days Id give it quite a big comeback)
4- If I take a comic with me to the bathroom i cant get out unless i read it all ( i used to take books but i stopped that due to the demands of certain ppl :S)
5- I believe in super-natural powers and that once the human race wasn't all this weak and uninformed about the universe

Three things I like about others:

1- Good sense of humor and smiling REAL smiles
2- Twist of Dimensia (WOOHOOO!)
3- Honesty

Three things I hate about others:

1- Back-stabbers
2- Liars
3- Gossip freaks

I tag:
1- Moey
2- NippoNada
3- Black Iris

MEGADETH!

2006-01-27T13:16:00.000+02:00

I cant believe this! Megadeth is going to dubai in the Desert Rock Festival! this is a mission i must accomplish! its a once in a lifetime oppurtunity! Theyr sadly disbanding soon and this maybe one of their last performances which i could see LIVE! Testament, 3 doors down, Saxon and Mannikind heres the weblink for anyone whos interested in the festival http://www.csmentertains.com/desertrock2006.html

Of Boredom and fun... an idea to life!

2006-01-25T00:49:00.000+02:00

Ok am now officially now bored, i swear i was so excited that i was making a blog but i just went blank as soon as i finished from working on it, so i decided to pull a fast one on my brains and start writing and not stop until am satisfied..... hehe and my evil plan is working >:D today was a moderate day in which i have accomplished nothing (as usual) but something different has struck me today, i have always been a lover of my country (jordan) and my motherland (palestine) and i have a band with my friends whom are great in what they do, so i have decided to suggest this "idea" to my bandmates, which is make songs for our country and each individual makes a song for his motherland,(by the way our band has a lebanese drummer, saudi guitarist and me a palestinian, our bassist and vocal are unknown at this time so if u could help us plz tell me!) i dno if this is a good idea, or actually i know it is a good idea but will i be successful?!? i guees we gotta try and see >:D by the way our band name is Euphoria, remeber it cuz ur gona see alot of our work :D
"hehe the plan worked my brain is officially an idiot now heheheh.... wait.. isnt that bad? :S "

2006-01-24T01:40:00.000+02:00

out of the shower...

A New Begining...

2006-01-24T00:48:00.000+02:00

This is my first blog ever, inspired by many, i thought id like to speak my mind too, hope ull enjoy Youthanasia, my little piece of mind on the net :D