I spoke to her today, after a while of awkward and painful silence.. She seemed to be fine, seemed to be content and discretely glad to speak to me.. I really don't know where I'm going, earlier she asked me to fall out of love.. Impossible, isn't it? But she expects me to comply... I'm not saying that she's selfish and self-centered, but she's reached a point that she wants things to just disappear and is so very lost and confused. You can't really blame her, I mean, I just came out of nowhere, I got to know her well enough, couldn't keep my heart in its cold "senseless" cage, and fell in love with her.. I had to ruin it all by falling in love and admitting it to her.. I promised myself i would never do this to myself again, but guess what?! I rescrew myself over and over again... These past 4 months have been like hell, and they'r not getting any better at all..

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